to: Kim Yugyeom, my starprince; as always
from: your moon princess
as the clock strikes twelve and changes the date to the twenty-fourth of July the moon princess sits by her window and looks up at the night sky in awe, staring out into the vast space in hope to meet her lover's gaze － for she and her starprince are celebrating their third anniversary today.
3 years by your side.
3 years since my heart fell into your hands.
Can you believe it's been yet another year since my soul stumbled upon yours again in this lifetime of ours?
Since the days of her childhood the princess knew that there was something she was missing, something that her soul felt incomplete without. so she strolled around the rooms, through nature, as the years passed and she grew older while it felt like herself and her surroundings grew further apart. And every night she would ask the moon to help her find her missing piece, or at least let her know what it was. but each and every day, as she received no answer she slowly stars to grow angry and upset, eventually crying out at the moon － but little did she know that she's the one who implanted the subtle, subconscious awareness of having to find something into the core of her being, that she's the one who was chosen to lead her towards the lacuna of the pages that make up her life, her being, slowly, step by step; even if she doesn't notice.
The moon princess felt lonely, but something didn't let anyone take her heart, even if it did fall into someone's hands she would always soon take it back into her own arms again. Her vision began to get clouded with sorrow, but she was still walking through the world seeking for what her soul was yearning for, trying to allay the agony of her heart.
The snow and crystals started to melt into droplets of insignificance, nothingness which indicated that gloomy winter was soon to disappear while seedlings already started to flourish. It seemed as if vivacious spring didn't even proclaim her arrival, but instead appeared in the blink of an eye. Nevertheless, the princess could only notice the soft breeze she was greeted by as it met her cheeks; the flowers blossoming among thousand others into a garden of delicacy and pulchritude were left unnoticed by her as the clouds around her and in front of her sight restrained her eyes from meeting them. But how will she perceive what she is looking for when she can't see? The answer is simple: the moon chosen by destiny to be her companion on the path towards happiness will guide her; her heart will feel the presence and as she shoos away the clouds her soul will confirm it as her eyes fall onto what she's been missing all this time. and unknowingly, with every passing day and each step she took, she started to reach further towards her journey's end. Of course she was struck with uncertainty, she was doubtful, oh how she wished the cloudy barrier would let her see again or, at least, peek through them for a while － but nothing changed, except the seasons.
You might wonder why the constellations of cancer and leo grace the first page of this memento as none of us was born under those signs － our day however fell on the cusp of cancer and leo; cancer the sign ruled by the moon and leo the sign ruled by the sun. a wondrous coincidence, don't you think? truly a day of the sun and the moon..
The moon princess sat by herself, in gloom, hoping for something to finally change this state of hers when suddenly － sunbeams started to pierce through the clouds in front of her, thinning them out but still not enough for her to fully see yet. With her vision now slightly hazy she attempts to look up and is met with tiny little stars glistening right before her eyes. Out of nowhere tears silently start rolling down her cheeks as she is overcome with a sudden and inscrutable familiarness and so she follows her instincts, gently holds them between her palms and brings them close to her heart, engulfing them in a hug. Her sobs begin to become more audible and her heart gets filled with a feeling of serenity, but is still stinging, for the longing seems to shrink while she feels like she has found what she's been wishing for all this time, but as though something is still absent.
I was always missing something my whole life before my eyes fell on you, yugyeom. Especially since the day I saw you with my own eyes, even if from further away, and seeing the things that happened a few months after, it was once again completely brought to my notice that it's you and you only. The last little fractions of uncertainty and doubt were ultimately banished from my heart and my soul just smiled to itself as it knew that you're the one since the day my clumsy little figure stumbled upon you.
The moon watched in compassion as the scene in front of her unfolded; the little princess was so close to finding her missing piece but still so far away, she failed to fulfill what she needed to in order to acquire it, for she was still blinded. So the celestial companion of hers used all of her capability to direct the droplets shed to the tiny sphere of stars in her hands. The gently collision of both objects made the one in the girl's hands gleam and radiate a tranquil light. The stars were joined by other incandescent speckles and aligned themselves as if they got entwined and woven and soon they formed the most pulchritudinous constellation mankind could ever have witnessed. But that constellation soon changed its form, put on human shape and right before the forlorn, almost huddled up figure of the princess now stood a boy in splendorous, royal raiment － the starprince; the prince of the sun. He reached out towards the moon's heiress and finally made the clouds and haze around her disappear. The girl was left confused at the sudden act, previously too absorbed in her crying, but as her eyes met his a feeling of familiarity rushed through her anew and her breath stopped until the boy enfolded her in his arms － oh never before has she felt such secureness and gaiety. Now she knew for sure that this is where she belonged, that his embrace is where she was always meant to be, that he was the missing piece she's been seeking her whole life. Finally her soul felt content; her soul felt complete.
I am certain that loving you wasn't just a simple decision I made one summer's eve － our encounter was fate, it was written in my stars. And I thank them for putting me on the same timeline as you, I thank them for guiding me to you, Oh I thank them every night as I sit by my window and reminisce what they bestowed upon me once again.
How could I be this lucky?
The princess still in his prince's arms caught sight of the dangly accessory adorning his lovely ear － a little moon smiling brightly at her. Her eyes widening as she tried to comprehend the sight in front of her, but the only thing she could do in response was cry. Is her heart really this fragile? That she cannot help but shed tears so often? But she had a different reason this time － utter happiness and assuredness.
They both called each other sun and moon and promised once again to stay with each other until the end of time, for their souls had embraced one another and intertwined centuries ago. They would for sure find their way back to each other.
I am so incredibly thankful for your existence, I'm so glad I can spend my days by your side, Yugyeom. Now that I have you I must never worry about falling deep into the abyss of despair and sorrow, of nothingness, for you are what keeps my head over water, what leads and accompanies me on our moonlit path － yet for another revolution around the sun.
Millions of words but still I'm not capable of grasping my love and all I wish to say with them, three years and I still couldn't even begin to fathom how quickly you occupied this heart and mind of mine, as if you flicked your fingers and resided in it the next second. But I will always thank you for doing so, these past three years I could see you grow into the wonderful, admirable person you are today while growing with you and thanks to you. You are the best part of me. Three years may seem like a long time sometimes, but are only an immensely small fraction of what I devoted myself to － loving you for an eternity.
my heart keeper, I can still clearly remember how I gave every little ounce of my heart to you － without hesitation. I can remember that promise to stay by your side until the end of time, we promised to love each other until our souls turn to stardust again; but even then they will stay intertwined eternally, in the vast cosmos. This day i fell in love with you in this lifetime of mine was all my soul had ever waited for.
You have swathed me in felicity, brought me an ineffable amount of pure tranquility as well as fortitude. No one else could ever do the same, no one else could assemble these things the way you do; no one compares to you, who is the universe's most favorite child. The vast cosmos put all the stars in your eyes and the beams of your smile while I find myself drowning in them as it seems as though I was put under your spell. You awakened my dull eyes and heart from their slumber of unawareness; when the waxing crescent fell for a waning gibbous on a day under the same, latter phase she was completed. Thank you for being the missing piece to my soul.
And just with the reunion of the prince and princess, the sun and the moon collided as they fell into each other's embrace. And all the stars sighted in awe and all other celestial bodies seethed with envy as they watched their act.
the melody of the sea, the songs of the moon and the harmony of our souls will keep our hearts joined together forevermore, starprince. I start to sound like a broken record as I repeat the same words over and over again, but I might as well say them once more: I will love you forevermore, for another several centuries, I promise. I will always happily await the fall of the moon and rise of the sun for me to bask in your golden glow and sunshine anew.
Please wait for me, I will see you soon. I will meet you at the end of our own red string of fate. I promise.
But for now let's continue meeting each other in our dreams, shall we?
I love you forevermore.
with endless love,
Lea.
please go back and enjoy
exploring the other parts
of our own little universe.
♡
a collection of some of the wondrous things I encountered or experienced while having you in my heart and on my mind during the time the days and moons cumulated to eventually form another year of being by your side; letters I kept to myself until now.
📄 𝐣𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝟐𝟔, 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟖; 𝟏𝟐:𝟎𝟗𝐚𝐦 ::
calming moonshine
here i am, once again infatuated with the moon. .
the sun has long settled down to sleep so i thought it would be right to do the same but there was one thing that was stopping me from doing so :
having my mind be occupied with thoughts of you. actually this is a phenomenon that occurs quite often.
in fact, it happens almost every night.
however, since i didn't (or well, couldn't) fall asleep yet i noticed the moon flooding my room with its light.
I couldn't help but get up to behold this heavenly component of the universe. i've always been in love with the moon and the fact that it always keeps us company and watches over us.
my love, can you see how brightly the moon shines? also, look at how beautifully the clouds are arranged around it. thank you so much for that, lovely sky! it actually looked way more breathtaking if you looked at it with your own eyes but nevertheless i somehow wanted to capture this fleeting moment so i can always come back and look at it and prevent it from ever leaving my mind.
the moon also had to promise me that it'll look after you from time to time and make sure you're happy !
it may seem absurd to some people but i like to capture every moment that makes me feel at ease and happy so that i can always keep it close to my heart and experience the same feeling again whenever i look at the pictures i took or the lines i wrote.
and the fact that you're on my mind when i witness these beautiful occasions makes them even more meaningful and special to me.
and that's why i wanted to share this view with you.
i dedicate this breathtaking view to you. ♡
📎 𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝟐, 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟖 :: a trip to wonderland
we went on a boat trip today shortly before the sun started setting and i genuinely felt so at ease and comforted by the sky and the sun i couldn't have been happier.
at this moment i felt as if there were no problems, no bad things in my life anymore, like there was nothing i'd have to worry about. it felt as if it was only me and the sunset. and i want to attempt to capture this wonderful moment, this best of feelings in words so here it is:
I can feel the already slightly cool breeze softly tickling my skin and i feel like i'm starting to harmonize with it, i feel like i'm slowly becoming one with my surroundings. it's only me and nature right now. i don't pay attention to the music playing in the background anymore, i don't notice the other people around me anymore because they don't matter at this moment, theyre not important but instead, the sky is.
it's a mixture of pink and orange colors blending into each other. it feels as though the sky and its color protect me from the often so dreadful reality, i feel so utterly safe and relaxed at this exact moment, in this place. it seems like the sky was painted by the most magnific artist of the heavens today as well. the sun is mesmerizing as always, beautifully reflecting on the water making the waves' dance look even more magical and fascinating. i wish i could just jump in and join them and their movements. today's clouds look so dazzling too i could watch them make their own movements and do magical things forever. they are now dyed in a soft shade of pink making them look like powder deliberately scattered in the atmosphere. I never want to leave i want to stay and live in this moment forever. together with you.
but then in the next second it's gone again. this moment, this also slightly weird feeling that can't be controlled. it always comes to me, finds me whenever it's ready to.
so see you again the next time, beautiful state i find myself in from time to time. please come around again real soon.
i really wish i could convey those feelings better, yugyeom. i wish we could witness a moment like this together one day and cherish it forever. but you know what? this feeling reminds me of a certain something. I really want to know why this feeling always reminds me of home, why this feeling reminds me of you. but conceivably i will find out one day, hm?
maybe it's because you remind me of home, you are my home since home is "an environment affording security and happiness" , a place where you feel safe and at ease, the place "where the heart is". i think this perfectly describes you. yes, you are my home, my safe and happy place. you mean more than anything to me, my sunflower.
and i'll make sure you will always be a special part of my life. forever. also, i hope you're sleeping soundly right now and having sweet sweet dreams.
i love you, my starprince.
📝 𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝟑, 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟖 ::
in the garden of the heavens
my dear yugyeom,
i had a wonderful but also exhausting day today and i want to share something beautiful that i got to witness with my own two eyes with you
i came across some beautiful rose bushes and other flowers and i'm so happy about it. to me this was the best part of our whole trip today !! every single one of them looked gorgeous but it seems like one of them caught my attention more than the other ones did. this one right here :
to most people it would probably be the most inconspicuous or uninteresting one out of them at first because it had only two blooms and the other rose trees were much bigger and more impressive at first sight. But that wasn't the case for me. it grew on a spot where the sun didn't reach when we visited them but because of that it looked even more interesting to me and i could take really pretty pictures of it with the sun in the background.
this little bush's blooms were dyed in the most stunning color i've ever seen and it was just so charming overall.
i wish i could have kept it company for a bit longer, i couldn't stop looking at it. it was just so mesmerizing.
In fact, you and the little rose bush have quite a lot in common, you know?
as i said, this little bush seems rather inconspicuous and normal next to the other ones at first but once you consider taking a closer look at it you'll get to lay eyes on all its breathtaking details and you start to observe them more and more and get to know everything about it better and eventually notice how magnificent and special this little plant actually is. and then you can't take your eyes off it anymore.
see? the exact same goes for you, my sunflower. that's probably why i took this adorable little plant into my heart in the first place.
however, the other rose bushes were so beautiful as well so i can't just keep quiet about them and not include them in this little letter as well. i can imagine that you'd have loved to see them too so that's why i want to dedicate these snapshots of the gorgeous roses i saw today to you:
Just a while later i came across some other flowers as well.
i don't know their name but they looked like a type of little sunflowers. so of course, they made me think of you. and can you guess what made all of this even better?
right, while i was taking pictures of them i suddenly saw a little bee buzzing around them and taking a seat on one of them. oh my, you can't imagine how happy it makes me to see little friends around flowers and keeping them company. this spectacle instantly overflows me with this feeling of happiness that i can't accurately describe and makes my lips subconsciously form into a smile every time
here are some pictures of them as well :
i wish we could go look at some flowers together once. but i'm afraid that i wouldn't look at them but instead could not take my eyes off you anymore if that ever happened.
after all you're the most breathtaking flower to ever grace this planet. even if i'd pick all of the most beautiful flowers and made the so seemingly most gorgeous bouquet with them they could never compare to the beauty of yours.
i love you so much my sunbeam
📃𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟎𝟗-𝟏𝟏, 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟖 :: celestial adventures
dear starprince,
these past three days I felt as if I set foot in the realm of dwarfs, fairies, nymphs and all other mysterious and ethereal creatures, while being introduced to all magic and beauty of theirs. enchantment is an understatement when talking about all the things I experienced and encountered, already on the first of those three bewitchment-filled days.
it was one of those days on which clouds would greet you as they cover most of the sky while being carried to another part of the wondrous surface above by none other than the vivacious wind himself who then sent out a refreshing little breeze to accompany me on today's journey － the one who would lead me to the mountains, through heights and crags, down towards creek and an old water mill long lost and forgotten but now presumably inherited and inhabited by forest or mountain sprites from the surrounding areas; at least thats as it seemed.
while making my way down I stopped for a moment to look up only to be met by the beauteous view of the crowns of the trees softly swaying in the wind, making them look as if they were dancing to the forgotten, vanished melodies of old, long bygone times where everything still seemed to be in harmony. If you listened closely you could hear the fairies chime in, quietly and softly, with their golden little voices, singing you tales of times immemorial, of utterly distant memory.
climbing all the way down was of course time and energy consuming, but it was so worth it when all the marvelous things that were hidden before suddenly came to light. It was as though I found a magical place, a hidden land, a completely different and unknown little world between mountain and forest. And you know what, Yugyeom?
An immediate smile crept on my face as it reminded me of nothing else but you; the depths, the wonderful parts of your remarkable being which are hidden at first sight, invisible to the naked eye but revealed to those who are willing to look at you with their heart.
the staggering clarity, which resembled those of crystals glistening in the light, kissed by the sun, possessed by the creek I came across can not be captured on any photograph. I had to stop for a moment to behold the view in front of me and to tell whether my eyes were tricking me or not － but they weren't; the little purling brook was real. and it looked so beautiful under the sun's golden glow.
Later on, fortuity was being kind to me and guided my wandering eyes towards a unique little leaf on the ground which then practically shouted at me: "lift me up, take me in your hands and make a wish!". So I did. I took it towards the creek, made my wish and blew it onto the water hoping it would take it far away and make my wish come true. You usually don't make wishes on leaves, do you? But that's all that felt right to me at that moment.
I'm sure you'd have loved it there too, my astral elf prince. That's why I want to dedicate this view to you.
the sky always makes me yearn to be closer to you
On day two I came across a striking, entrancing wonder of the grounds below us － basalt columns. it always fascinated me how things like this came into existence millions of years ago, it's truly otherworldly. but just with my way of thinking, I like to believe that earth spirits, like gnomes, and other tiny magical beings helped to let them arise out of the depths of earth. it really is interesting, right, my drop of pluto? How nature works..
as I was taking my steps around this place I was greeted by a lot of different little flowers. Some of them especially made me think of you and your favorite ones; of course they weren't close to looking like your beloved dandelions, but they still reminded me of them as they were smiling at me with their bright yellow, delicate petals. But later on I really was met by a tiny dandelion, all by itself in the middle of a vast field, among thousands of blades of grass, herbs and seedlings; ready to let its seeds disperse and float through the air like hundreds of little fairies carrying out their enthralling dance.
another spellbinding component of nature which crossed paths with my curious eyes was none other than a lovely hollow tree, now most likely home to dainty, giddy little fairies and their beloved animal friends. Closing my eyes and smiling to myself I greeted them hello and then left, letting the second day's journey end like this.
day three was started with a beam and excitement plastered across my face as I was to see waterfalls soon, while a boat would be taking us across a stream －
We were going to enter the land of naiads and other birds of their feather? will they reveal themselves to me in some form or another? would I also be able to meet some fish or other creatures of the bodies of fresh water??
we were walking through the stupendous scenery towards the pier and I found myself awestruck with my surroundings － which were simply magical and I know I use this word too often, but there's simply no term, no words, no phrase that could ever limn the wonders in front of my eyes, no depiction could ever do them justice.
And so in the blink of an eye we were brought to another nearby place that was now for us to stay at and explore for a while. However, before we returned my eyes fell on a certain rock in the water which was, next to lots of moss and other beings, covered with coins lying on its surface.
Seemingly, people were making wishes on this little rock, so I took this opportunity as well and wished for you. The unexpected but remarkable thing about this was a little leaf falling right into my hands not even a minute later. I immediately thought: "did the little fairies I greeted yesterday make this happen? Did they bring this to me?".
But what did that mean? I also remembered the little leaf I made a wish on at the creek.. maybe they wanted to let me know that my wish will come true, but that I as well have to work hard for it to do so.
this day was truly bewitching and oh so wonderful..
feeling the soft breeze against my cheeks as we were carried along by the water, hearing the wind and birds sing in harmony was another anodyne for this debilitating heartache of mine from whiles ago, which would happen to return from time to time. But these adventures are what allays the pain and makes my sorrows vanish.
the only other 'thing' in this vast universe that has this effect is you, my incandescent sun.
whenever I experience things like these, I experience them with you in my heart and with you on my mind.
That's why I dedicate these impressions to you.
I love you.
